Breaking Bad!

I just LOVE the t.v. show, Breaking Bad. It has amazing actors. I think Bryan Cranston is some kind of genius. Even though I usually don't like grizzly crime shows, this one has a wide range of humor, drama, artistic camera angles, cracker jack writing and amazing twists. Plus it is good to see good old Albuquerque!

A New Day, New Art Work

I have been making cat face sculptures lately. Art Bell once said, "If you cover up their ears, cat faces look just like aliens!"  It is SO true! I find the cat face to be most fascinating! Here is my newest, The Cosmo Cat. I just let myself go- no rules! Any colors, and shapes on the cat face. I just zen along as I go. Thanks for looking!
http://www.auntjanecan.etsy.com/

Aunt Jane Couldn't Make It All Better

You know, I haven't posted here in a really really long time. I am not a verbal person, or a word person. I am a picture person: colors, patterns, shapes, etc. So it is difficult to express myself in words. And then I have this depression and stress sometimes. That's when I become REALLY silent. I just have no words. And nothing that I think anyone would want to hear. And no one would hear or read it anyway.

Well, I finally had my BIG breakdown. You see, I have a most beautiful son who is an adult now. At age 17 he came down with schizophrenia. It breaks my heart. He is 35 now. For a long time he did very well on medication, had a job, his own apartment, social life. But then... He went off of his medication, and just left. He ended up in San Diego and is homeless. And not on medication. Sometimes he emails me from a library or somewhere. His words are like some sort of poetry- word salad that I attempt to decipher. He is in complete denial and has no insight into his illness and does not want any help.

I made an attempt to get him back here, but it didnt work. I just Broke into little pieces. I became suicidal. But a tiny part of me in the very back of my mind said- tell someone. So I did. I told my sister and my boyfriend. And I said, "Gosh, it would be good to be sedated."  So I went into the psych hospital and got help. I am now on Seroquel, a medication that really helps me. I still feel the pain and the sting of my son's situation, but it is a little bit further away, rather than right up in my face to the point I cant breathe. I have a little breathing room. I am not suicidal anymore.

Spring Chicken Birthday

Spring is here, and it is my hen's first birthday. They have been awesome companions and they even feed me. I read that in scientific studies chicken's language is quite extensive. Of course! They make many sounds and are always talking about whatever is on their mind. I have Americauna hens. They lay blue/green eggs. Because they are free range and eat very well, the eggs have a brilliant orange yolk.